Was just wondering if anyone else has an experience in a relationship with an addict, being an addict yourself.
I'm an opiate addict personally, was using IV oxycodone/morphine/hydromorphone daily, as well as handfuls of percocet and vicodin in between.
so I live all alone sure he's here beside me, but it's not him that's home *An addict I'm not...
Before he came home, I filed for divorce but since he had changed so much, I put the divorce on hold. I reminded him that he would lose me and the kids if he chose to use. It is so heartbreaking to see someone who was a great person destroy themselves and there is nothing I can do about it. No matter what I do or say, my best friend and the man I thought I was going to grow old with, will do anything to get crack. I read the words, Co-dependent and Enabler and as much as I hate to admit it these are exactly what I have been. You can give them love and believe that will make them stop. They will say all of the things that you want hear and believe. His life is now filled with empty promises..turn into "real promises" (which don't happen) and now he has moved onto "pinky"promises.(which still don't happen) It seems that his intentions are so good, and then an hour later his mind totally changes.
My husband and I have been married for almost 15 years. I am always worrying about what may be happening to him and it sucks.
Up until 2 1/2 years ago, he was the best father to our children and best husband to me. The same old thing.....disappearing for hours or days at a time, money missing, lost his job and could never hold another one. I know I should just walk away...something keeps holding me back.
No physical addictions but the mental craving to get fucked up on something. I met my (now ex) boyfriend last year when I was going through my needle days.
We actually shared a house with a couple of other people when I was on suboxone, and were best friends almost immediately.